Showing posts from January, 2015


If you are familiar with the Gay Christian Network (GCN) lingo, you would have heard of Side A and Side B. If you've not, those on Side A believe that God blesses same-sex marriages, and those on Side B believes that God calls gay Christians to lifelong celibacy. You can click on the links to read the very long arguments Justin and Ron have made respectively for Sides A and B. They have done an excellent job and both essays are well worth a read.

If you'd like to know, I personally am on neither side. That is a whole other story fit for a post on its own.

In any case, I'd just like to talk about love and unity in the body of Christ. As Jeff Chu put it so well in the opening keynote GCN Conference earlier this month at Portland,

"If you are Side A, can you regard Side B without pity? If you are Side B, can you look at Side A without judgment? If I told you that I’m Side C or Side M or Side Z—or if I were to refuse to opt for sides or labels, because they vex me—could …


I've been crying a lot these past two days. It began just after I finished watching the replay of Jeff Chu's opening speech at the GCN conference that took place two weeks ago in Portland.

He called for a church to be more inclusive. To love without judging. And that everyone has a story to bring to the table. Everyone mattered. 
I didn't know why I cried that night but I sobbed so hard. 
Then at church today, I inexplicably started weeping during worship. I teared up at different points throughout the sermon as well. Subsequently, as I was walking back home, I had to keep myself in check to prevent a floodgate of tears from escaping and scaring the passerbys around me. 
I suppose what I felt was anguish. How every gay Christian might feel at one point in their lives. 
Now I've not experience homophobia in church. That's not the reason for the tears. It's something more basic. 
I wish I were straight. 
How many times have I, like the countless others before me,…

The Imitation Game

I watched "The Imitation Game" last night after being influenced by The Straits Times to do so, what with them doing a 2 page special on it and with Benedict Cumberbatch covering the front page of Life!
It was a BRILLIANT show. 
Everyone should go watch that movie. Unless you are under 16 in Singapore. They rated it NC-16, and I was initially slightly wary (too much sex and gore just scares me), but I realised it was because it dealt extensively on the topic of homosexuality.
I was rather surprised how much the movie focused on him being gay. After commenting to a friend, she pointed out that it was quite crucial because of how the film ended. I shall not post spoilers here.
After watching the movie, I realise how tremendously blessed we are to be living in this country in this day and age. Even though 377A has not yet been repealed, people are not thrown into jail for being a homosexual. Or killed even. I feel so grateful really.
In Uganda and Russia, the situation is quite…

Vicky Beeching at the GCN Conference 2015

I recently wondered if I should blog about my experience at my first (and last) Exodus International conference that took place around a year and a half ago in 2013. Then as I was checking my twitter feed 3 days ago, I chanced on the recommendation of a friend (one that I made in the Exodus conference) to watch a keynote address at the GCN Conference that took place around a week ago.

Intrigued, I did. That's when I discovered Vicky Beeching. Her story is incredible and you can catch it here or in the embedded video at the end of this blog post.

She began with a quote by Katherine Center, "We need to be brave with our stories so that others can be brave with theirs." I was hooked. I spent the next hour listening to her speak on her life followed by her sharing a bit on theology and I was transfixed throughout.

As much as she was hilarious and very articulate, she told a most heartbreaking story. I'll not spoil it for you, go watch the video yourself. But in short, it…


Came away very inspired after service with Pastor Tan today. The title of his message was "The Chief Cornerstone". 
An interesting point to note was how people (including myself) often mistake cornerstone to mean "a stone at the corner of a building" which is a forgivable mistake. The Hebrew word for cornerstone is actually "pinnah" from which we get the word "pinnacle". And that stone was the stone right at the centre of an arch of a building. It holds the entire structure together, without it, everything falls apart. With it, it can sustain the weight of a bridge and more. 
Similarly, Jesus holds our entire life together. Without Him at the centre of our lives, everything would fall apart. With Him, we can withstand the pressures of the world and still hold it together. 
As such, Pastor Tan exhorted us to make Jesus the front and centre of our lives. 
A fitting start to the new year. I'm blessed. :)

Sometimes I regret coming out

Not all the time. Just sometimes. Especially to my sister. Because every time I try to bring up the topic, she brushes it aside. And I end up not being able to tell her a lot of things that I wish I could share openly and honestly with her.

All these thoughts stirred within me as I read how about a transgender guy regretted coming out to his parents. It's a good read and shares with one all the reasons you might want to be careful who you come out to.

Don't get me wrong. I think that in specific situations, coming out is great, but choosing the right person is vital too. Some people just can't handle too much information, and life would be saner for you, and for him/her if they didn't know.

It's a long but very good read.

The importance of a group

I came back from cell group a couple of hours ago and felt like going for it was the best decision I've made all week. Hearing testimonies of how God worked in my friends' lives, having other people pray earnestly for you, and just hanging out, chatting with people just does wonders to the soul.

And it brought me back to how grateful I am for having found a different sort of group roughly around 3 years ago. 
I got to know about Church of our Saviour's support group for those dealing with LGBT issues through trusty Google. Also, at that time I'd just gone through a Sy Rogers DVD where he encourages anyone in need to find a counsellor or a support group. So that's how I found Choices. 
Some folks I met at FCC thought it's a place where they try to make you straight. I clarified that that's not its aim. In fact, my participation with Choices has been a great help to me, especially in the chaotic time I was in back then. 
It's a place where you can have an…