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On meeting Wesley Hill and attending his lectures

So this week I met Wesley Hill as he was invited to Singapore to do a conference and speak a little. After listening him speak at Prinsep Street Presbyterian on Monday night on the Old Testament and how it relates to marriage and sexuality, I was intrigued and signed up for the entire course with the Biblical Graduate School of Theology for $90 which I thought was a rather good deal.

Wow. It was amazing. I have been shortchanged by my church man. 10 years in church and never once have I heard a holistic picture preached on Sexuality, Marriage and the New Testament like the good professor did in a mere 4 sessions.

I'll be blogging what I've learnt over in the next couple of posts to consolidate my thoughts and also to reinforce what I've learnt.

What can I say, God's got my back.

I was doing just the exact opposite of what Dr Hill's been preaching almost right before the lecture and God just convinced and convicted me this week.

How good God is.

And with great power…

Thoughts of suicide

Today a gay Christian friend of mine told me that if he were ever to kill himself, in his own words, he'd "hang himself in the church toilet" to make a statement.

It's the third time in as many days suicide has been in my mind.

Yesterday a friend in Australia alluded to it for reasons unbeknownst to me.

The day before that I was super upset about the tension of holding on so tightly to my faith, and yet being created to be someone like myself - queer.

That night I was crying out to God, "Take me, take me already, won't you?"

It was hard.

I have a feeling when pastors counsel their gay Christian members, they don't see us as any different from the person watching porn, or one committing adultery. Which is all fair and good, all sins created equal (although I don't agree and that's a post for another day).

But how many can comprehend the deep hatred we have within ourselves, cultivated over years of internalised homophobia set in place by the …

Pleasure is God-glorifying (an extract)

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God's creative intention was to bring glory to himself by the pleasure that he created. Each pleasurable thing was perfectly created and designed to reflect and point to the greater glory of the one who created it. These things were designed not only to be pleasure inducing but also for a deeply spiritual purpose. They were meant to remind you of him. They were meant to amaze you not just with their existence but with the wisdom, power, and glory of the one who made them. They were put on earth to be one of God's means of getting your attention and capturing your heart.
You see, you will never understand pleasure if you think that it is an end in itself. Pleasure is pleasurable, and you should never feel guilty that you have enjoyed its pleasure or that you want more. This is all according to God's design. But you and I must understand that pleasure has a purpose beyond the momentary enjoyment it will give us. Pleasure exists as a sign of the existence of one in whose arm…